Monday, June 18, 2007

Home

So I went and cleaned our house today and as of tomorrow morning, it is listed For Sale. It really helped me to work in there, I was able to find some closure with a lot of things and go through a list of memories...that now make me smile, laugh, cry, and feel and incredible sense of accomplishment.

Moving into the house knowing that we would be starting a family soon.

I remembered the day that I frantically began tearing wall paper down in the bathroom as I was getting ready for the upcoming laparoscopy/hysteroscopy.

The day I replaced the floor in the kitchen. The therapy I used to help heal from the miscarriage.

The day, on the couch, that we decided to adopt and I felt such relief and joy.

The day we brought the kids home and they explored the house...finding their bedrooms, the kitchen...the love.

Painting the kids rooms as we waited to hear the placement date.

Waking up on Saturday mornings to the sound of laughter and bubbling over with joy.

Sitting on the toilet at 1:30 am waiting on a pregnancy test.

Screaming at 1:30 am in the bathroom as the word "Pregnant" shows up.

Making the toilet my best friend as I go through the worlds worst morning sickness.

4 months of bedrest. That couch was my best friend.

Leaving the house at 5:30 am knowing that we would be bringing our newborn son home soon.

And finally, driving up to the house today and hearing Staci say, "Home sweet home!"

I will miss that house and all the memories held there dearly. Luckily, I also hold them in my heart.

10 comments:

Rachel Inbar said...

Wow :-) You brought tears to my eyes! I haven't read your blog yet (aside from this post) but your story sounds fascinating.

Isn't it lucky that those memories stay with you - especially the good ones :-)?

Jenn said...

That was beautiful. I have feelings like that about our house.

Meg said...

What a great post. Its so hard to leave a "home" but you described it perfectly with all the memories that you will never lose.

mandolyn said...

I love the memories that a house can have. I'm glad they stick around longer than the time you spend in the house, too.

Just think of all the good stuff the new house will be attached to!

Sticky Bun said...

This is such a beautiful post--so eloquent and really captures the beauty of your home. Thank you so much for your comment on my blog--it lead me to this wonderfully heartfelt post.

Bean said...

Wow -- what a ride you've had. Moving on in any way can be bittersweet, but it sounds like life is pretty good for all of you and I imagine you'll be making all kinds of wonderful memories wherever you are.

thanks for stopping by my blog and for your nice words. I'm so appreciative of all the support I've found on the blogosphere, it's incredibly comforting.

Caro said...

Thanks for stopping by and good luck with your next home.

Stacie said...

What a lovely post!

Nichole said...

This is the first time I have read your blog (thanks for the comment on my blog by the way)It is truly an inspiration. DH and I are in the position now where we are trying to decide between IVF and adoption.
We still have no idea what we are going to do!

Furrow said...

I've never been crazy about the house we currently live in, but someday when we're moving, I'm sure I'll look back with nostalgia, too. Afterall, it's the one our baby will come home to.

You have an incredible family-building story. Good luck and lots of happiness in your next home.

Thanks for stopping by my blog.